Mild
The Wall Between
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The sound started around eleven — a rhythmic creak from the apartment next door, low and unmistakable through the plaster. Mai had been lying still in the dark, watching the streetlight press its orange stripe through the curtain gap, and when the creak began she did not move. She just listened. That was the first thing about her: she listened the way some people watch.
The fan turned on its slow axis above the bed, pushing the wet summer air in lazy circles. Ho Chi Minh City was loud even at this hour — a motorbike somewhere below, a vendor's distant call — but those sounds were outside, indifferent. The sound through the wall was intimate. A woman's exhale, cut short. The creak settling into a tempo.
Tuan noticed her go still. He had been half-asleep, his hand resting on her hip over the thin cotton shorts, and he felt the change in her the way you feel a held breath — a new quality of attention. He didn't speak. He pressed his palm flat against her hip instead, a question without words, and she answered it by shifting her weight toward him, just slightly.
"You're listening," he said. Not an accusation. Almost admiring.
She didn't answer. Her jaw was set, her eyes fixed on the orange stripe on the ceiling. Her right hand lifted from the sheet and pressed flat against the shared wall — the wall that was, she now understood, about thirty centimetres of old plaster and almost nothing else between this bed and that one.
The wall was warm. That surprised her every time, though she would not have admitted there had been other times, other nights, when she'd pressed her fingertips there and thought about the lives on the other side.
Tuan's hand moved. Slowly, with the particular patience he had when he knew she was somewhere else in her mind and he wanted to bring her back to her body. His fingers found the loose waistband of the cotton shorts and traced along it without going further. The fabric was so worn it barely registered as a layer — she could feel the exact pressure of each fingertip.
Her breath came out through her nose, controlled, quiet. Silence was the only rule tonight, though neither of them had said so.
Next door: the creak quickened. A sound she couldn't quite name — not a word, not quite a cry — pressed through the plaster and into the room. Mai's palm flattened harder against the wall as if she could receive it more completely that way. Her eyes closed. She was here and also there, in a bed she had never seen, with a woman she had never met, and the strangeness of it moved through her chest like something swallowed.
Tuan's hand slid lower.
She turned her face toward him for the first time, her cheek against the pillow, and in the dim orange light he could see what her expression was doing — the effort it was taking to keep it still. He brought his mouth close to her temple but did not kiss her yet.
Through the wall, the rhythm continued. All four of them, in it together, without anyone having agreed.