Sundress in Silver Lake, Partner Remote Control

The restaurant noise arrived before she was ready for it — the specific layered hum of other people's evenings, silverware and low laughter and a server calling something toward the kitchen — and she walked through it with her shoulders level and her face arranged, the way she always arranged it, because that was the first performance and she had already started.

The dress was so light she'd almost forgotten it. Almost. She felt it now where the air conditioning found the hem, a faint coolness rising against the inside of her thighs as she followed the host to the table. She sat carefully. Both hands found the edge of the menu.

Across from her, he picked up his own menu without looking at her.

That was the thing. He didn't look at her.

She lifted the wine glass the server had already filled and took one sip, a measured one, and set it back down. The ambient noise pressed around them — a couple behind her laughing at something, a chair scraping, the low percussion of the room doing what rooms do — and she sat inside all of it with the device fitted exactly where he had placed it, back in the bungalow, before they left, his hands patient and unhurried while she stood in the bedroom doorway and told herself she was still deciding.

She had not been still deciding.

Her left hand stayed on the menu. Her right hand settled in her lap, on top of the thin cotton, feeling the warmth that was already there — her own, held in the fabric, present before anything had happened.

He scrolled something on his phone. Not the menu. The other thing.

She watched his thumb move and kept her face where she needed it to be.

The ambient noise was generous, she thought. Generous with its cover. The low tide of other people's conversations meant that whatever sound she made — if she made a sound — would dissolve before it crossed the table. She was aware of this the way she was aware of her own pulse, which she could feel now in an unexpected place, the soft inner crease where her thigh met the chair cushion.

He had not turned anything on yet.

That was the part she hadn't prepared for. Not the device — the waiting. The fact that he was sitting there reading the menu, actually reading it, and she was sitting across from him already warm, already aware of the cotton against her skin, already performing calm for a room that wasn't watching her.

She took another sip of wine.

Her knees were together. The hem of the dress lay across both thighs, light as breath, light as a suggestion.

He looked up from his phone then — not at her face. Lower. A half-second, unhurried, and then back to the menu.

The exhale that came out of her was longer than she had meant to give it, unfolding quietly into the warm restaurant air while the room's noise swallowed it whole.

She pressed her knees together and waited.